Sleep tight my kutty angel. I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really bloody hell love youu and missing you is the fcuking most hardest thing I'm trying to do right now. I fcuking love you for what youve been to me while you were still here.

Is there a way back to yishun annae? :(

I FCUKING FCUKKING MISS YOU LAA :'(

Remember the celebrations we always had?

our JB trip early in the morning?

you sending me to SSDC and telling me 'monkey better drive carefully ahh', when i still feel like asking you, you asked me to drive carefully, but why you lost control annae?

Your surprise walk-ins through my door EVERY week, at least once?

You sitting down with me for hours and hours sharing your life and heart with me?

Advising me about life and love?

Calling me your angel and monkey and rascal(i fcuking miss that)?

DO YOU REMEMBER, TWO DAYS BEFORE YOU LEFT, I ASKED YOU TO BRING ME GO MUMMUM SOON AND YOU SAID CONSIDER IT DONE?

(its totally done ah annae?)

How you used to pamper me?

How you loved me and told others im your dearest little sister, despite having two elder sisters biologically?

The way you treated my family as yours?

Why annae whyyy?

I fcuking dont wish to stay here anymore.

You left us and expect us to move on?

Appa misses you everyday, he cries, he tells me he really wants to see you idiot, for leaving him.

We all want to come to you.. :'(

I wouldn't mind being a coward, weak or whatever you call it to not know how to handle your departure. I fcuking dont and dont want to know.

Im fcuking broke and fcuking tired of expecting miracle to happen, fcuking tired of crying to see you.

I know this is not you want to see me doing, but i can't.

Im trying to suck it all up, help me annae..

FATTY!! COME IN MY DREAMS SOOOOON AND ALWAYS PLS PLS PLSSSSS!!? :D

( i remember, your one hand holding pizza and still eating, another around my neck, even messing my hair )