I miss you baby. i really, truly do. you know i love you way too much and its not that i haven't seen you for so long because i never thought of you, right? i hate how much i have to miss you. you were almost everything i lived for. i miss putting you to sleep, admiring your sleep, holding your hands, bringing you to shops, being with you.... i miss how much you find for me, how much you always sticked with me, how much you always spent your time with me.... you, my little boy have always knocked on my doors so hard if they were closed. you have knocked till i opened, knocked till ur little hands hurt. i still remember baby. i still remember you telling me that your hands hurt, your little hands. i hate to see you once or twice every few mths. your first three years, i have never missed your days. but now.. you seem no where near me. you gave me too much happiness, you took it away with you. why are we both so caught between these situations? I want you Baby.. or i never want you. i can't possibly be seeing you grow so far away from me. You're not my blood but my life. Don't forget me by any chance baby.. i know you grew up alot now. Love you to 'don't know' how much baby.. when's next?

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