Saturday, November 14, 2009♥
12th November.
Pria, Sapyna and myself were happily going for our job interview at outback. we had a hard time finding the place but eventually we did. infact we had no interview for the fact that its a recommended job. we had lunch at fish &co which of course was something we dreaded totally. nevertheless, we did enjoy the whole time till our legs had to hurt. the next day was a planned dayout at sentosa, which technically is a friday. we were supposed to come back home and conference to plan the whole thing out. but i was way too tired that i actually went to bed. i wasn't asleep yet though.
Then came a call to my dad. my elderst brother was watching tv in the hall, granny sleeping and me in the room. when my dad began raising his voice over his converstaion asking what happened and all. i totally felt a sting. there came a msg to my phone in a nick. it gave me a shock of my life to know that grandpa passed on. totally sudden. Raj annae was pondering to himself, of course because he had no idea. then i had to tell him what happened and that shook him too. so did it for my granny. my dad was literally supporting himself on the window grills. i guessed he's knees going weak.
it was in the wee hours of the night. we rushed down to ttsh with so much hope we could see him. we did. after much await. i tell you. it was already 3plus? cold night. upon seeing thatha, my herat totally broke. i just couldn't bare to see him lying thr like you know what! and to think, he's soul is no where near, it brought so much tears. i felt the loss for that moment. he was so cold. he's fingers were decolourising. he's skin was no longer soft.
the last time when i saw him on Diwali, he was so cheerful. so cute telling all the old stories like always! before leaving, i kissed his cheeks. they were so cold and hard last night. i was so scared to touch him. blood on his fingers made it all the more worse.
i just can't describe how the van he was put in looked like but i tell you, it was so scary in the inside. my heart kept pounding so bad, i was telling myself, thatha's going to be so afraid inside.
Raj said he probably is talking to his brother and sister up thr so happily now. finally he's with them already. appa said he should be having a good time after such long break catching up with his siblings. maybe it is, but for a moment i felt like we were losing out head and talking about the aftermath alrdy. we were indeed!
13th November.
Today was his wake at his home at semb. but i guess everyone's pulling it off for now at least. tomorrow's the crematorium. and i really hope everythng goes fine. *cross fingers* its the last time. yet so hard to come to terms, he's no longer with us.
You've moved across to the finest place. You're fine up thr. You will be. Though i will miss your presence. Now, you're so free from your wheelchair. After 18 long years. You became a god. I will miss you.
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