Finally, Had a great temple dayout with Nandha &Pria.
Tagging along was Sweet Aunties, Perima&Some Aunty...!
Got a bloody chance to spill my heart out to Mummmmy.
Pria,Only Pria knows what the REAL HELL it is.
Something No one, &Me as a SISTER, can never digest.
But I'm just putting my burdens to GOD, only.
I will take it as a test from Him.
But still, Its fcuking heartpain to even think.
From what to what, who to who.
I wish God stands by my brother to guide him thru' this really difficult time.
It can never be justified nor forgiven.
I'm asked to do something I SHOULDN'T, and CAN NEVER do being a sister.
For once, I really feel like I'm smiling so fake.
I don't want to complain that its too much to take as a seventeen year old, but just that its way too hard.
I couldn't cry more to wish for the whole matter to stay in the dark.
Mummy, you're watching over us.
DO PROTECT US.
I always never asked for a easy way out nor a simple solution to every problem But just the ability to take it thru' &push myself to face it.
I'M FEELING WAY TOO LOST:'(
(ChuChuBoo, I swear I could take it NO MORE.)
Its fcuking hurting me within.

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